I feel bad for some reasons.
I came to a realise that I have so much potential that I do not use.
I can accomplish things with a little afford but I simply choose the things that do not require any special afford.
I might have different adjectives behind my name right now.
A guitarist
A pianist
A student in Bogazici University
A 'something related with science' student

But I just cannot study and focus.
It kills me not to use my talent and my brain effectively.

Something is wrong up here.