Yes it burns.
This is how i exactly imagined it.
It burns my chest and ties my throat.

There is my little cat on my bed.
There is a man I love thousands of kilometers away.
Why can't I have both?

I fell for the guy.
I love the guy.
My guy.
My man.

And it hurts my memories to know that there isn't a certain date we'll see each other.
The only thing I know is I love him and he loves me back too.

That was all I've wanted.

Again crying. And I'm going to cry more for sure.

If there is someone sees everything from above, it knows I miss his everything.
His smell, his voice, his hair, chatting with him, listening to songs with him... why the hell am I writing I simply miss his EVERYTHING.

Cold wind doesn't help too. Adds up more weird feeling to the ones I already have now.

I just cannot stop the time. It is impossible. That makes me feel so vulnerable and small.

I even miss how he says "impossible" too.

I fell for the guy.

He said "this is even worse than breaking up" on our last night.
That was true. That is true.

Now I feel so tired but also so shitty thag shittiness keeps me awake.

I just want to hug him and sleep. This is all I want. To smell his hair, kiss him on the lips, hug him and sleep.

This burns.