I... fucked... up..
Enough "Live your life as you want, do what you want" bullshit. Be realistic, you simply can't live your life as the way you want to live, you always have the things that you have to do, the things that you can't quit which are mostly the things that you hate.
Shit, I also want to live this fucking bullshit as I want.
But you just can't fucking do it.Simple, right?
Fuck. What these "heartening quotes" want me to do?Quit my school and my country and my language and my lifestyle? Shit.
I can't.
I can't change them.
I tried to love them but I couldn't.
So enough bullshit of "this is your life do what you love". I'm always pissed off, when I see them I get more pissed off.
Shit.


Maybe I'm not that brave to leave these fucking things behind.
I can't take that much risk. This is the dilemma which drives me crazy, in every single moment.



It's just like this : "Just whose life is this anyway? You tell me how to live but who asked you anyway?"