Walk with me to my blackened room,
I'll follow you wherever,
I don't need to be brave, as I fear nothing when it's you I am with.

Help me light the lights,
One by one,
With your fire,
With the fire in your soul,
The fire that burnt me too deeply,
Sank deep into places I didn't know could burn,
And consumed me whole.

Even now, years later,
I am still trying to figure out,
Why I'm still clawing at the air,
Why I still can't breathe,
Why the scars still refuse to fade.

I wish I could have said:
Let it be your fire that burnt me.
But now I see,
You lost it to someone else,
You shone, and you ashed.

If I had been brave enough,
I might have shared that fire with you,
The one that was once yours,
Because I am still burning inside,
With yours,
And yours alone.

I hate it

I hate it
I hate being in the same country with you

I need you away from me
I hate knowing the air you breath gets closer
Because I've chosen to stay away from you
And I hate that you are disrupting my plans
Knowingly or else, I hate it, and this hate is all that's left

I hate the fact that I hate it
Because I don’t want it
But I won’t fight with it either
I am not going to bother to make peace with it
Because I am too disoriented to fight with whatever you do or don’t do
I am tired when it is this
This, I hate

And this hate
It is the fire that burns the water
It is the sparkle in the predator’s eye
And it is as pure as droplets on glass, swaying purposeless

Now
Take that glass
And sink it deep into your chest
Take that pain
And turn it into hate
And that’s the only feeling you’ve left me with
And that’s why I hate it and hate to hate it

I can’t even bear the thought of seeing you
In my country, my territory
Because it belongs to me
All these views and tastes you cherish, they are all mine and mine only

And let me remind you
I have all the dreams you wish to come true for yourself
And I have everything that you have and wish to have
All these, they are all mine
And mine only

I hate that this is all in my head
And you are the one who ignites it

And I hate it, not you.