He would be my first man.

Why it just doesn't happen now? Right now.
Is it that complicated?
Are you waiting for me to be patient?

Every Little Thing Is Going To Be Alright

Love I am still so different than before.
And I do not want to ask the same questions anymore.
Love you have to believe me, I am so different.
Where are you waiting?
I hear you singing to me.
If you ever find me then I will ask you to try me.
Love you have to try me, I am so different.

I miss her only when I feel like a shit.
Because she knows how to feel like it as a pro.

Okay no more thinking of him.
No more.
He helped me to get that thingy over, that was it.
Okay no more.

Umarım bir gün rüzgar güllerinin seslerini beraber dinleriz.

I want you to join into my "Marooned".
Oh boy, I've been thinking about you since the day.

Love will find a way.

Nice en beklenmedik anlara.

Excuse me sir, do you mind if I fall in love with you?

Make love to me slow n' easy

Aklımı kaçırıyorum sadece hayaller var.
Ve çok yoğunlar ve çok gerçekler.
Çok gerçekler ama sahteler ve gerçeğe düştüğümde yaşadığım hayal kırıklığını ve geri dönme isteğini düşün.
Sabırsızlığımı düşün.
Sabırsızlık en kötüsü, yerimde duramıyorum garip garip heyecanlar yaşıyorum.
Bu nasıl bir şey?
Ah korkak olmasam.
Neyden korkuyorsam.
Neyse.

YA NEREDESIN YA NEREDESIN CILDIRIYORUM NEREDESIN NEREDESIN

WHERE ARE YOU TONIGHT CHILD!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????

No no.
He is not in a relationship.
No.
No.
There will be only me.

Acaba kokusu nasıldır, acaba teni nasıldır diye düşünmeden edemiyorum.
Dudaklarım tenini nasıl hisseder acaba?
Ah.

"You show me love
You show me love
You show me everything that my heart is capable of"

...And I know child, my fighter, you will.

Please

Show me everthing that my heart is capable of.

I want you to show me love
Show me love
I want you to show me everything my heart is capable of
And you will know that this is right when you look into my eyes
I know I will simply fall for you
I will fall deeper and there will be nothing to break me away from this
"This time I know blues have departed"
Because you are pure my fighter.
My saver.
Nothing will keep me away from you.
I know, I know.
Everything says the same.
There my heart goes again...

Lütfen.
Her şey tam.

I was like you too people.
I used to hate people like you do now.
But now I try to love them and see the good sides of them.
The only thing that you are doing is complaining, blaming and hating.
Because this is the easiest way to do.
I cannot even believe myself that I am the one who is telling these.
I was like you too, you people just need to get away from the poison that is in your souls.

I love to trust the person that I am with.
I trust them no matter of what.
If I love them, droping them will cause me pain so I choose not to see their mistakes.
Do I do like that? Whatever.
This sometimes brings me a lot of trouble afterwards.
I am learning how to open my eyes bravely and face the pain.In order not to harm myself more in the future.
That is why I sometimes think that I am naive but the truth is this is the right way.
It is really about the person that I am with.
I do not like to think if they are cheating on me or doing something behind my back.
Well, ask me who likes to worry?
That is why my partner has to be pure. He has to be honest.
Playing with time is fun but sometimes painful and dangerous.

They were talking about the girl's remembering of a club member who was also from their school and of course who was one of his good friends.

He said:

-I thought you liked him, maybe this is why you remember him.

+Oh, no I don't.He is not even my type.

- What is your type then?

She seemed like she was going to tell something teasing;

She turned her eyes away and started to talk:

+Well my type is someone who is snowboarder, who likes bikes I mean basically who likes extreme sports, listens to metal music, enjoys life and who is happy with his life.

She turned her eyes right into his eyes and continue:

+Who is long-haired, oh and most importantly who is a fighter and deserves to be loved.This is my type.

They looked at each other and smiled to each other.He had no doubts left after that moment, he knew that he wasn't going to hesitate after all.

She was happy to see him accepting her and was sure that they had a future together.

"There's nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be"

I was there.
He was there.
We were meant to be there.

I really will lose it oh god

Oh god,
I need to see him as soon as possible.
I am going crazy.
This is so strange!

Aklımı kaçırmak üzereyim bu çocuk aklımdan çıkmıyor.

Hani öyle güzel tesadüfler olur ya,
Oluyor.

Bir insanla herhangi bir problem yaşadığımda eskiden sürekli kendimi suçlardım, kendimi eleştirirdim, karakterimde zayıf noktalar arardım ve zayıf noktalarım olduğuna kendimi inandırırdım.

Fakat şimdi görüyorum ki ben gerçekten çok güçlü, sevecen, karşısındakini ne olursa olsun sevmeye uğraşan yardımsever biriyim.

Bazen bu yardımseverliğim korkunç boyutlara çıkıp beni sarhoş edebiliyor, öğrenmeye başladım.Öğrendim.

Bunları kendimi övmek için yazmıyorum, bunları farkındalığımı somut bir şeye dönüştürmek için yazıyorum.

Tabii ki zayıf noktalarım yok değil ama ben kusursuz olmak zorunda değilim.

Bazen karşımdakine o kadar çok güveniyorum ki bu beni saf biri yapıyor, öğrenmeye başladım.

K

Gerçek olmaları lazım.
Olacaklar da, biliyorum.
Hem uyuşuk hemde kıpır kıpırım.
İkimizi yan yana düşünüyorum ve gerçekten çok güzel bir çift görüyorum.
Gelecekte hissettiklerimizi anlatmaya kelimeler yetmeyecek.
Paylaşacak çok fazla şeyimiz var.
Biliyorum.

Bu bloğu Ocak 2011'de açmışım
Ne çok şeyler paylaştım onunla
Onu çok seviyorum.

Ve ben yerimde duramıyorum evde çıldıracağım,
Ben baya baya gittim yani.

Arkadaşlar ben aşık oldum galiba.
Tam bir "love at first sight" aslında.
Çocuklar ben aşık oldum.

Special Thanks To A Black Belt

I really am glad that you came that day.
I was mentally in a bad shape and you saved my day.
Thank you child.
I will tell all of these to you in the future.
You are pure.

Ah çocuk ben o gün o kadar kötüydüm ki iyi ki sen geldin.
Bunu sana ileride anlatacağım.
Sen beyazsın, öyle görüyorum.

Remember this moment.
Universe loves me.
And I love it too.
Thank you for everything that you've sent and will be sending to me in the most vulnerable times of mine.

Push your anger child
You have never been humiliated than before.
Push it, they will all come to an end.

You put yourself into the places that you do not want to be in.
Why?
Because you want to be loved.
That was all you wanted
You just wanted to be fucking loved.
But what you got instead?
A cold bed on the ground.
Good for you child, keep up like this.
Where is the love to shelter you now?
Only love could set you free, what happened to that?
Love I was so different what happened now?
Fuck all of you.
Universe had plans for me what happened to them now?

Everyone looks at me.. Maybe I am beautiful maybe I am weird...
It disturbs me.

I want you to come and love me

Zurich tuvaletinde in a darkened room dinleme gelenegimi 2014'te ilk defa gerçekleştiriyorum