Vagon

En çok özleyeceğim yerlerden birindeyim.
Daha doğrusu en çok özleyeceğim yerdeki en sık geldiğim kafedeyim. Sokağın üzerindeki masalardan birine geçip hem sokağı izlerim hem de kitabımı okurum hep.
Şu anda da o masalardan birindeyim ama kitabımı yanıma almamışım. Wake up dinliyorum.
Kadife sokak! Vagon!
Soğuk günlerde içeride oturduğum masa da bellidir.
Belçika mükemmel bir deneyim olacak elbette ama insan alıştıklarına uzun bir süre(!) veda etmeye yeltenince içi burkuluyor.

Evet, özleyeceğim. NAPALIM.
Antwerp'ten İstanbul'a dönerken de Antwerp için aynı şeyleri hissedeceğim.
Uf çok heyecanlıyım. A new advanture is ahead of me!

Oh no! Now I don't have no one to think of when I listen to "I Need You"*

"Well you know I need you,
Much more than the air I breathe"

What a purely beautiful song!

Lynyrd Skynyrd - I Need You*

Antwerp

10 gün sonra bu şehirden gidiyorum
Yuppies
Ailem ve kediciğim(o da aileden tabii ki) ve biricik dostlarım

Mayıs 2015'ten kalma şarkılar dinliyorum
Ama hisleri gelmiyor
Golden Age
Hisler orada kalsın, istenmiyorlar, mide bulandırıyorlar artık
Mide bulandırıyorlar öznesi yüzüden
* diyebileceğim günlere geldik
Bir devir kapandı
İyi ki de kapandı
Çoktan batmışlar
Çoktan beridir gelmeyecekmişsin, gelseydin de zaten ne olacaktı? İyi ki gelmemişsin, iyi ki gelmiyorsun. Kal orada sen, 3 kişi bir odada kalın. Birbirinizi yiyin.
Zamanımız Mayıs'ta kalmış
Doğmayalım

No. Even though I think, I will not dedicate any single writing to you.

Why is there so much pain in this world?

After Sons of Anarchy, I cannot watch any other shows.
I cannot embrace them like I did with SOA. They are missed so much.
They were like a part of my life, since 2011.
Anyway...

I can read it from the voice. Addiction.

Bir sigaraya kaç dakika sığar?

Looking at Maiden Tower...

After all I wasn't going to wait you forever.
I do not hope anymore and it is fascinating.
We are moving forward
...and Maiden Tower has dissapeared.
Now Haydarpaşa is getting closer.

The culture
The people
The behavior
The social pressure
The country as a whole!

They all detest me

I am not going to live in this disgusting country
No, I can't have a future here
I don't have a future here

I'm sorry the greatest leader... What you've anticipated is coming true.
I am sorry, I can't stay here.

Big brains small minds...

I AM BACK BITCHES
SAME OLD ME
LET'S CHEER IT UP!

I went to bed at 5.30 AM got up at 8.30 AM but I feel alright right now.
In 1.30 hour I'll take the exam I think I'll get an avarage point, if lucky get 85 or higher.
I am cool. But I will be dead at the end of the day. And I 'll see 3 of my friends at different hours today :)
Anyway, vitamins will help me. And banana.
Banana is important. Well yes, now having breakfast half naked and will be on the road in 30 minutes.
Oh by the way I was just thinking, I will not love same person more than once again.
I am done with this shit.

CHEERS

Still studying for tomorrow's HTR final :)
I am used to studying at the last minute and generally I get great marks but this time I fucked up reaaaallly big (:
It's 4.45 AM and I still have 40 pages to read and memorize :)
Besides I don't remember the previous pages so this means I have 120 pages to read (:
What should I do now?
I am not going to fail but I think I will spoil the first exam's mark which is 90 out of 100. I could have had AA from this "verbal" lecture, now what DC or something?
Shit son :)

Let Go All Your Hatred & Love

You are just unattainable in your ignorance and I am not willing to try anymore.
I end this torture right here. 
There is no room for you in my life, not for you and not for your absence.
I will try for this pathetic primitive being to be closer no more.

Your light will shine on noone child.

I feel like I am in a little box, let the numbers change how I feel.
Is it safe to yield onto numbers?
Happy new year and let every little thing be alright this year.
But in the end, it is just a calculation due to the Sun's movements.
Anyway, oh hi there 2016.
I'll decorate you with lots of smile, music, beautiful people, festivals, concerts, new tastes, new places, whole different cultures and lots and lots of good memories.
Hold on! They are so close!